solarangel's brain spew

The thoughts and feelings from someone living with long term depression

I’m back

After some time away from blogging, I’ve decided to come back. And at the moment I’m a more positive person, but not all the time.
So what have I been up to since April? Well a lot for me, but it wouldn’t seem very much to a lot of people. I don’t even know where to begin, but I think I will start with my birthday.
Birthdays, a big deal to me. Well mine anyway. So I tell my friends to keep the day I chose free, and then I would come up with something to do. I was excited, but then I wasn’t. You see to me birthdays mean another year wasted, lost to depression. A war that has lasted about 5 years so far. Suddenly I find that I don’t want to celebrate that, and cancel without giving a reason, who wants to celebrate a war? Especially one that’s on going. So I sink into a low, and cry, and hide in my bed. What’s so great about being older anyway? I don’t feel any older, I just feel bad.
So I guess that was the main thing in my life for May…


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This entry was posted on August 7, 2013 by .


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